First, I did take a test only to have a negative result reminding of what a long journey this has been. It also occurred to me today that I absolutely have this love-hate relationship with my body that I thought I'd share.
I hate that my body...
-could not hold onto the babies I wished for so badly.
-can't seem to function properly to carry a child again.
-seems to have a mind of it's own.
I love that my body...
-can produce such an amazing miracle.
-allowed me to see what being a mom is all about.
(Now sobbing)
I will forever be thankful for being able to experience pregnancy and having such an amazing child. I only wish I could have one last chance to completely cherish being pregnant and allow Jace the experience of being a big brother. It's has been 1 1/2 years since our last pregnancy and I'm losing hope that we will ever get pregnant again. I'm so frustrated right now!
Monday, November 3, 2008
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Wait and see...
Who knows if our attempts worked this month, let's hope they did though. I don't really feel any different compared to other months but it's a bit early to start noticing any changes. I did ovulate a little later than I was hoping for and that could be the reason we don't conceive this month. So, just a few more weeks to go and we'll see what the verdict is.
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