Failed...

Another bad month! We are getting really good at not getting pregnant, huh? I really wanted to go at it full force this month and have a good surprise for Will on our anniversary but obviously failed. Instead of a good surprise to share I had to break the bad news that I started my cycle on our anniversary. So no baby making on our anniversary trip, sorry honey! I ruined this month by having another passing out episode around ovulation time. This time I passed out at the gym, how embarrassing! We actually made an attempt at conception prior to passing out but after I passed out I had no energy for a few days and I'm pretty sure that's when it mattered most. Oh well! I've come to accept that this baby business may not happen again for us and Will doesn't really want to explore the option of artificial insemination until we try the natural way a lot more. I can understand his reasoning but when life happens and natural conception isn't happening, I would really like to see some results one way or another. I have even started sorting through Jace's baby clothes in hopes of feeling less pressure to make a baby, but in the end it really only makes me want it more. After oohing and awing over all the cute baby stuff I only want a baby more and end up feeling more frustrated. Let's hope school will take my mind off of the baby efforts and thus make it happen!